The Waiting and Not Knowing

Spiritual Reflections during a Cancer Journey

by Chris Horwood

One in two people will face cancer in their lifetime — whether their own or a loved one’s. Christians are no exception. But when a serious diagnosis arrives, where do faith, fear, and unanswered prayer meet?

Most books about cancer are written after the storm has passed. The Waiting and Not Knowing presents raw, honest reflections from a fellow traveller before he knows the outcome. No tidy resolution, no testimony of healing — just real, unfiltered experience of walking through uncertainty with God.

Chris Horwood writes not as a detached theologian, but as a pastor who found himself facing the same sleepless nights, the same “why me?” questions, and the same crisis of faith that every Christian cancer patient knows. Having also lost his first wife to cancer, Chris brings rare depth to questions of suffering, God’s goodness, and trusting Him when answers don’t come.

This is the book for Christians facing cancer who want more than a healing testimony — who need permission to wrestle honestly with God, to sit in the waiting and not knowing, and to discover that faith doesn’t require certainty to be real.

Beautifully presented with journalling pages and verses to ponder, this book also makes an ideal gift for someone in need.

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