Spiritual Reflections During a Cancer Journey
by Chris Horwood
Are you trusting God through cancer — but struggling to find words for what you’re feeling?
One in two people will face cancer in their lifetime — whether their own or a loved one’s. Christians are no exception. But when a serious diagnosis arrives, where do faith, fear, and unanswered prayer meet?
The Waiting and Not Knowing offers honest, biblical reflections from a fellow traveller — written not after the storm has passed, but from inside it. No tidy resolution, no testimony of healing — just real, unfiltered experience of walking through uncertainty with God.
Who is The Waiting and Not Knowing written for?
This book is for Christians navigating a cancer journey — whether you’ve just received a diagnosis, are waiting for results, or are somewhere in the long middle stretch of treatment and uncertainty. It’s also for those who love someone facing cancer and want to better understand what they’re really going through. And it’s for church leaders and pastoral carers who want to walk alongside people in this season with greater empathy and understanding.
There are so many books out there. Why do I need this one?
It’s written from inside the waiting, not looking back from the other side. Most books about faith and cancer are written as testimonies — once healing has come or peace has settled. Chris deliberately wrote this book before knowing his own outcome, making it a uniquely honest companion for anyone still in the thick of it.
It takes your questions seriously. Trusting God through cancer doesn’t mean having all the answers. Chris writes as someone with 45 years of faith and 35 years of ministry who still found himself wrestling with the same fears, doubts, and “why me?” questions that every Christian cancer patient knows. His rare combination of theological depth and personal vulnerability means you’ll feel understood, not lectured.
It was born out of lived experience of loss. Having lost his first wife to cancer a decade ago, Chris brings a depth to questions of suffering and God’s goodness that goes beyond theory. This is hard-won wisdom, offered gently.
It makes an ideal gift. Beautifully presented with journalling pages and Bible verses to ponder, this book also makes an ideal gift for someone in need.
Where can I get the book?
You can buy paperbacks and ebooks directly from us here.
If you’d love this book but cannot afford it, we do run a bursary programme. Please contact us to request a copy.
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